The Gemini meteorites,- Universe’s own fireworks

ME BEFORE:

Happy.

New Year party was a great experience for me when I was a child. The adults were solemn, humorous, very friendly, and full of laughter and joy.  We were all in our best clothes. The food was amazing, we got firecrackers on the plate. The kids got so much soda and candy they could digest.

       A happy kid celebrating New Year with mother and father

The fact that we went into a very New Year was absolutely fantastic. Could the world be better? Yes! In the next new year! Europe was largely peaceful. War and political nuclear armament was not noticeably for a child. The adults’ everyday concerns were drowned in children’s play outside and inside.

Many happy children and parents celebrating New Year’s Eve together

Sad.

Then everything changed. After my mother’s sudden death of acute cerebral hemorrhage when I was eight years, New Year’s Eve became daunting. What would happen now in the new year ahead? Who would die? Dad, grandma, grandmother grandfather?

Grandfather on my father’s side, died the preceding year. Old people were supposed to die, we learned, and I settled down with this. But when my mother dies, she’s just some thirty years. Then adult’s consolation, that only old people dies, cracks.

 When not playing and doing things, worrying can take over.

Worried.

So for me, – if we did not die in the year to come, how sick would we be all together? Heart attack, cancer, paralysis? Or who was next to be overrun by a car or truck on our way to work or school?

A dark cloud of concern descended upon me and the New Year’s festivities. Dad drank more than usual for New Year’s Eve to be. He told jokes and laughed loud and kept optimistic speeches. Perhaps it was to convince both himself and the rest of us that everything was as good as ever, – and would go well the next year too.

 Dark clouds on the horizon

The year my father was talking about, he was right! It went considerably well. Life seemed so far rather safe again. But then the year after, my dead mother’s father died the 8^th of December, – just before Christmas. He was my great ideal and inspiration, so
I was in shock. And instead of crying, I was furious. I think I swore, and used the worst words and phrases available when Dad told me this in an overly gentle and responsive manner. I was so upset that I ran out slamming the door behind me.

After this, – New Year’s Eve scared the hell out of me! While others laughed and partied wild and fiery, I was excited, yes, but mostly I was scared and worried.

         Another boy worrying about New year and the future?

 

ME NOW:

Focusing on quality and the presence here and now with YOU.

It’s a little better now. I have learned very much to appreciate the people I love and care about. Because in my consciousness I do not know how long I will be sure to have them around. I don’t even know if I live through the day. Therefore the present “now”, is precious for me!

           We don’t know what the future brings, only what we have now.

We absolutely don’t know what will happen to humanity and our beautiful planet. We humans are in a universal perspective almost like meteorite sparklers that brighten up the sky for a moment, until a new brief flicker flashes over the horizon.

Some would say darkens the horizon. I would say, it absolutely need not be so! This I have written much about on these pages earlier in 2016.

          David’s meteorite

It is unfortunately not always the wisest heads that control the planet. It looks instead like it is the most strategic, competitive and power-hungry, people that have taken the steering wheel. People with excellent rhetorical skills, competing among themselves on the most power.

Some leaders are better than others

Many of our leaders are paranoid and perhaps with good reason. To get to the top in controlling countries and world politics, you must be able to crush, betray, and by all means, kill some darlings on the road. That’s the  “Game of Thrones”. That’s the “House of Cards.”

I’ve said it before, but repeat: You are nevertheless a wonderful piece of nature regardless of color, age or gender, or what you believe in or who you love. You may want to protest and say against me, but I know this is true! I also know that you basically agree with me, if you take the time to think about it, whatever goods or wrongs you have done in the past.

       It’s ok to love nature’s creations, even if it is yourself. Then, we must also remember that your individual self must have to legs to be able to stand and move in life:  You and me.( the other.)

Take as good care of yourself, as you take care of your fellow humans in the new year. Maybe you’re introverted and afraid or even hate people. What you see on the street or in politics, and the ones you read about in the newspaper that do terrible things to each other, and even to children. They are not created so. They have derailed because of miserable experiences of what it means to be human.

            Exceptions in the human psychological zoo

Perhaps they have never met love, really caring, and responsible adults. Instead they have faced violence, threats, and highly conditional love governed by how successful they are or how good ambassadors they are for “their perfect family.” These people are the truly poor, who have fought themselves to destructive survival strategies to mitigate the pain of living, and to crush suspected opponents.

  Not all Family members follow the manuscript of “A Perfect Family”

Some may just love dogs because they are so open, devoted and unconditionally loving. My experience is that all people also have a core in themselves seeking unconditional love, warmth, care and recognition. At the same time they have a core who like to give care, affection and love back to others.

        We belong together no matter how different we appear to be.

In my meeting with multiple murderers from different backgrounds, I have also experienced this. It does not mean that this core can not suddenly freeze and close down, surrendering to the hard and brutal  defense,  if they feel threatened.

However, I hope we can meet our fellow human beings in the New Year with a nod and a smile, implying: I see you, and accept you, and I know that you too are struggling with the same thing as me: Being able to exist and work as well as possible within the limits you are born under, and your present surroundings on this planet.

People being nice and friendly with others, even strangers.

A planet by the way, called Earth, with a speed around itself at 1667 km / h at the equator. A planet that hazards at a rate of 11 072 km / h. around the sun. And moving with the solar system we are part of at 800,000 km / h around the core of the Milky Way.

The great movements we are part of does not even end here. But ending now , does this New Year greeting for You from Me!

Thanks for this year! See you in 2017!
I hope…..

Happy New Year!